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I got my acceptance into the study abroad program today, and I feel sick. When I showed it to my mom (with a slight groan, I think) her response was "Timing has always been a problem for you, hasn't it?" And I started thinking how much better it would have been if I had applied last year instead, but then I realized that that would mean I would be gone this year. Bleah. I don't want to go. I don't think I really wanted to go before. I mean, sure, when I was imagining it and going through the whole application process it sounded really exciting, but now...
Of course,
Brian is a big reason why I don't want to go. Am I stupid? I'm sure there are people who would say so. It's not like I think I would necessarily lose him if I went, either. It's just that I can't imagine being parted from him for that long. It's an entire year! And although we've only been dating a while, he's already come to mean so much to me.
Gar. Mom's right, my timing sucks.
Of course,
Brian is a big reason why I don't want to go. Am I stupid? I'm sure there are people who would say so. It's not like I think I would necessarily lose him if I went, either. It's just that I can't imagine being parted from him for that long. It's an entire year! And although we've only been dating a while, he's already come to mean so much to me.Gar. Mom's right, my timing sucks.
